Just a little while longer...(part 12)

(Author's note: Um, so I'm sorry. If you wish to have your heart wrenched from your body, continue reading. Also major trigger warning. I am sorry. Don't read if you are sensitive. You have been warned. I love you all. Stay Alive |-/
-Trinity)

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Thursday

    Gladys was not okay. She had made it through school yesterday, but now she wasn't even sure she

could make it to her dresser. She had woken up fine but then almost immediately the dark thoughts

returned. Now here she was sitting on her bed in her PJs, looking at the knife in her hands. She was

tired. She couldn't remember the last time she had been happy. Worse, she thought she didn't deserve

happiness. No, it was only pain for her. That's all she deserved. Gladys blinked furiously, trying

not to cry. She deserved this, there would be no pity for her. She was a worthless person. She had no

friends because she wasn't worth it. To anyone. Gladys opened the knife and dragged the blade

across her wrists, relishing the pain she deserved.

      Gladys watched as her wrists bled, spilling all over her arms and pant leg. She wondered if she

would die from bleeding to death.

     Before she could find out, her phone rang. She quickly ran into the bathroom and cleaned off her

wrist. Then she ran back over to her phone while holding a few paper towels to the wound. She

looked at the number, it was Sierra. Reluctantly, Gladys answered it.

"Hello?"

"Hey, Gladdy!"

Gladys winced at Sierra's screechy voice. "Hey, Sierra. What's up?"

Gladys could hear her giggling and telling someone to stop. "Who's with you, Sierra?"

Sierra stopped giggling and Gladys knew she was lying when she said, "No one. Anyways, I was

wondering if you could come to a party with me tonight? I need a chaperone."

Gladys could hear more giggling. She rolled her eyes and gave in, "Okay. What time?"

Sierra squealed on the other side of the phone.

Gladys shook her head and groaned. Her friends were so fake. "Sierra?"

Sierra answered briskly. "Um, how 'bout 7? Um, I got to go, see you there!"

Before Gladys could answer, Sierra, hung up the phone.

       Gladys scrunched her eyes shut and took a few breaths. Why did she have such fake friends?

Then she remembered, it was because she was a fake friend. She squeezed her bleeding wrist,

digging her nails into the long cut. She held back a gasp of pain as tears came to her eyes.

     Gladys shook the tears from her face and bit her tongue. She needed this. This is what she

deserved. She was not okay. She did not deserve to be okay. She was worthless. Gladys held her

breath. She didn't know how much longer she could handle this life. She released her wrist and

proceeded to bandage it.

        She got dressed and walked out the door, tucking her trusty knife in her back pocket. She

sighed in relief as she stood at the bus stop. Being outside helped her clear her thoughts.

       While she was waiting, Tyler and Josh came up to her and they exchanged greetings. Tyler

was still pale, but seemed happier with Josh's hand on his shoulder. Gladys glanced enviously at Josh.

He was so supportive. Why couldn't she have someone like that?

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     It was 6:30pm. Gladys had been ready for 20 minutes, early as usual. She obsessively

looked at the clock every few seconds. Her heart started to beat wildly and she clenched her

wrist, hoping the pain would calm her nerves.

    It only made it worse.

By the time Sierra showed up, Gladys had cut herself again. She hurriedly bandaged it up before she

answered the door.

        Sierra smiled at Gladys and Gladys couldn't help but think how fake her friend was.

"Hey, girl. Ready to par-tay?" Gladys almost laughed in her face. Sierra was so fake.

Gladys couldn't believe she had ever thought this was her friend.

Gladys attempted to smile as she said, "Yeah, let's do it."

Sierra didn't seem to notice the look in Glayds' eyes or the plastered smile on Gladys' face.

"Okay, let's get some guys begging for us!" Sierra winked.

Gladys almost vomited right there and then. Sierra just wanted her to come as a cover for her

to do stuff with a guy? Ew.

Gladys smiled grudgingly. "Sure."

Sierra just laughed. "Okay. I'm meeting Tommy there. Don't mess it up for me. Okay?"

Gladys nodded. "I most definitely won't," sarcasm dripping from her words like poison.

Sierra obliviously nodded.

They got in the car and Gladys had the feeling she was really going to regret this night.


TO BE CONTINUED.....in Just a little while longer.....(part 13)





(author's note: of course it's number thirteen haha. btw I'm sorry, I'm so sorry. I love you all.
thanks for the support frens!! I'll post again soon.
Stay Alive |-/

-Trinity)